Re-Living a Night-Mare Every Time You Close Your Eyes ...

I saw you that time .. even though it wasn't in the best of terms but i think there was a reason for my being there ..

I've seen a part of you that i almost took for granted .. I never though of you as angry, you were always so full of life ..

But that day, i saw that you weren't as strong as you show every one .. and i loved you even more in that moment ..

I saw your hurt, I heard your scream, i felt you shaking .. and every time I close my eyes .. I see your hurt, I hear your scream, and i feel your pain ..

How can someone so charming, so happy, go through that much pain ..

In that moment, I didn't know if I should hug you to keep you safe? or kiss you to make the pain go away just like my mom always did? or just let you be ? when I know the answer should be all of the above.. Hug you to keep you safe, then kiss the pain away, and then let you be ...

I was looking in the eyes of a friend that was hurting sooo much, and I for the 1st time in my life was helpless to do anything ..

I never felt so useless, soo unworthy ..

It was not my fight you say ?! but isn't it a friend's job to bring a smile to your face no matter what ?! be it a bad joke or a simple heart-felt gesture of just being there and giving them what they needed the most; a friend .....

I didn't see a tear, but i soo wanted to see one, just to reassure myself that you are indeed human. A tear would have been just what the Dr. ordered, but just like me, you had to show the world that you don't need any one, and ANY pain is bearable ..

No one can take away the screams that I hear every time i take a breath except you ..

Help me, Help you ... I can't stand to see you down .. please .... Help me .....

Goose Bumps ..

Every time i see this movie, it leaves me breathless ..
Just to be clear, I'm a HUGE Superman fan .. Every version or variation of the Superman Trilogy is a must have in my DVD library .. Christopher Reeve (God Rest His Soul) is the BEST Superman That can ever be ..

But This scene is particular gives me goose bumps and i can't help but sigh !! hope you enjoy it as much as i have every single time i've watched it :)

A Conversation, Long Over Due ....

I had a talk with you today .. The 2nd time since you came back 3 months ago
We talked about everything and nothing really ..
Serious family issues, my 1988 birthday video, how you're thankful that you're not a guy because you don't have to wax your legs, and the list goes on ..
We haven't had this kind of talk since 2005 ..
I asked you what happened and you said later on, that gave me hope; thinking that's good since you were planning on there being a next time ..
I re-learned what makes you so special in my life ..
Even though you were disconnected from me, in a way you were still there ..
I've told you that i thought "thank god u weren't there when she passed" but that wasn't true, I've never needed you more in my life than in that moment ..

The conversation started from nothing really, but it meant more to me than so many somethings ..

Thank you

CSI Anyone ?!?!?!

A few months back, our other house was robbed .. we still keep that house for people looking to rent a house .. any way it was empty, except for a few chandeliers and what nots .. so the house's been vacant for quite a while .. and one day mom went there to fix something in the kitchen or something and there she finds evidence of some guy who's been living there .. with like cushions and empty food cartons and cigarette butts and stuff like that .. what she didn't find were the chandeliers, light switches, door knobs, even bathroom handles and sink knobs .. anything that wasn't part of the house; he took ..
When mom told me this .. I had a vision of me with a finger print duster and going around the house with an ultra-violet light :P but of course i couldn't tell mom that ..

So they call the police and i'm like : Pfffff good luck finding the guy ..

They surprise me and tell dad that they got prints off of a lot of stuff and that they would keep us posted .. and i'm like : YAAAAY :D

Today, as I walk into the house from work, I hear the conversation between mom and dad ..

Dad: I went to the police station today ..
Mom: And ??!?!
Dad: Yeah, the guy said that it wasn't a felony it was actually breaking and entering .. and i told him , yeah we know that, the guy went to the back door; broke it, came in took everything and walked outta the front door; which he also broke .. what's the problem ? and then the guy says yeah well since it's breaking and entering and not a felony, we can't match the prints unless he's a second time offender.

Now i'm thinking : You jackass !!! how would you know if he's a second time offender if you haven't logged in his 1st time offense ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! that's just stupid !!! So unless he gets caught in one of his "jobs" they won't even see if they have a match on his finger prints on file.
Ergo, steal anything you want as long as you make sure that you won't get caught ?!?!?!?!
Again .... STUPID !!!!!
I commented on police stupidity before but i couldn't resist this time :@

I get that he has procedures and he can't do anything about it .. but that's just plain stupid is what it is .. why bother taking foreign people's finger prints if you're not gonna check if they match with suspects' ?!?!?!

AAARRRRGGGHHHH !!!!!! I'm out !!!

I'm Game ...

According to Oprah .. This is the list of the 20 Hamburgers that I must eat before I die :

20 - Hamburger Sandwich
Louis' Lunch, New Haven CT
19 - Our Famous Burger
Sidetrack Bar and Grill, Ypsilanti, MI
18 - Hamburger
Poag Mahone's Carvery and Ale House, Chicago, IL
17 - Double Bacon Deluxe with Cheese
Red Mill Burgers, Seattle, WA
16 - Hamburger & Fries
Burger Joint, San Fransisco, CA
15 - Build Your Own Burger
The Counter, Santa Monica, CA
14 - Hamburger
J.G. Melon, New York, NY
13 - Cheeseburger
White Manna, Hackensack, NJ
12 - Hamburger
Bobcat Bite, Santa Fe, NM
11 - Grilled Bistro Burger
Bistro Don Giovanni, Napa, CA
10 - Number Five
Keller's Drive-in, Dallas, TX
09 - Cheeseburger
Burger Joint, Le Parker Meridien Hotel, New York, NY
08 - Hamburger
Miller's Bar, Dearborn, MI
07 - Buckhorn Burger
Buckhorn, San Antonio, NM
06 - California Burger
Houston's, Santa Monica, CA
05 - Kobe Sliders
Barclay Prime, Philadelphia, PA
04 - Rouge Burger
Rouge, Philadelphia, PA
03 - Not Just a Burger
Spiced Pear Restaurant at the Chanler Hotel, Newport, RI
02 - Lurger Burger
Peter Luger Steak House, Brooklyn, NY
01 - Sirloin Burger
Le Tub, Hollywood, FL

Courtesy Of Oprah.com ;) I'm Game .. Are You ?

Cooking Lesson #1 !!

Ok .. let me figure out a way on how to start .. From the beginning it is :)

Sooo last year we had this new cook .. yay all good, turns out he wasn't much of a cook, long story short; he didn't even know how to turn the stove on :S

So we started sending him from house to house (our relatives) so he would learn the basics of Kuwaiti food, it took him a couple of months to get the hang of it yet it's still not so good..

What did we learn from this story ?! : Kambi does not eat food cooked by Basheer (Our "cook").

soo when I started dieting a few months ago, it wasn't soo bad, i wasn't eating his food anyway so no big deal ..

Now my mom started a diet also, and she was like : "Mama what are you having for lunch today?"
I told her: "Haven't decided yet .. You?"
Mom: "I'm having Mayd ( type of fish ) u want to eat with me ?!"
Me: "YAAH !!"

ok so I'm waiting for her to finish our Mayd, I prefer the Mayd cooked 3al fa7am .. then when the food gets here i get the shook of my life and i find out that it's not 3al fa7am but bil firin :S

Ok .. no problem, just suck it up and enjoy the food with your mother :D

So i open up the finish to eat it, and what do i find ?!?!?!?!?!?! BLOOD !!!!!!
i was sooo hungry i felt my eyes start to water, i turn to mom and say : "Seriously ?!"

and she's like :" awww, take it they'll put it in the stove again and it'll be ok, here try this one."

i open the 2nd one and it's good .. soo i start to eat it, but there's this bitter taste :S soo my mom looks at me and say : "Ohh honey don't eat that, here try this one."

What was i thinking you say ?! "AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
I get up from the table as calmly as i can and say .. "mom this is soooooooooooo not gonna work, i can't eat this.. i'm sorry"

Oh on a side note .. This is the 2nd time that this has happened in the same week, but do i learn ?!?! NOOOOOOOOOOOO

Mom ofcourse looked at me funny as if I don't appreciate food anymore ..

So what did i do ?! I did the most natural thing anyone could doo .. I blamed it on my diet :D
Me : "Mom i'm sorry but i can't eat this if i'm gonna go through my diet."

Now i just have to figure out a way to go out and get my lunch.. BTW i'm still starving :(

Moral to the story
If your cook is as shitty as ours (Pardon my French) you have 2 options:
1) Learn to cook for yourself ..
2) Eat out !!! alot of places deliver ..

I wore a hat .. doesn't make me a guy :S

O.K soo for the past few weeks my car was in the shop because SOMEONE !! who will remain nameless, let's call him/her Ginger ... took my car and crashed into someone .. no biggie fully insured (Never leave the house without it) .. soo any way my car was in the shop and i got it back yesterday evening ..

So after i practiced my political rights (Pfffff) i decided to take Alex (My car's name) out for a spin .. I grab a hold of Mishmisha (Which now i realize i shouldn't have because she was supposed to be studying *GrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrR*) we both wore hats and started cruising.. enjoying the Semi-Nice-Ish weather.. i was soooo in the mood to speed, that i would punch it at odd moments like 10 seconds before we reach a traffic light :D i was careful ofcourse.. i promise i was!!

Everytime a car passed by with girls in em' they would turn their heads and start smiling, now me and mishmish would just look at them and be like WTF ?!?!!?! they'd take a good look at us and realize that we are NOT guys, give a disappointed sigh and drive off ..

Ok now this happened about 3 times, 2 times more for it to be a coincidence .. soo i turn to mishmish and i'm like.. Shit they thought we're guys !!!!! Does the hat really affect girl's eye vision that they automatically assume that the driver of the vehicle is a GUY?! Now let me talk about the 4th car .. she saw the hat .. kept staring .. i turned to her so that she can see that i don't have a mostache, my features are feminine and finaly i'm a girl .. does she look the other way ?! Noooooooooooo .. she was totally amused, apparently i'm her type :S eeyyywwwww soo i decided to give her the red-eye (For all you non-Kuwaitis red-eye means act totally *bitchy* putting it delicately) this went on for about 10 min. then she found out that i'm a girly girl who decided to NOT dress up tonight and go out and left us be ...

The moral to this story:

Girls: when u see someone wearing a hat in a car, doesn't ALWAYS mean it's a guy.. normal ppl aren't always in the mood to doll up, we have our moments *freaks*..

Guys: a girl wearing a hat isn't looking for someone to follow her, so don't even bother..